This journey has undoubtedly been the most painful yet the most fruitful, so far. Yes, even more agonizing than my divorce years ago, as that can be explained with both logical and Biblical reasoning (I knew what the consequences would be). My current situation, however, seems to go beyond any human comprehension...and it is in such times that my faith is tried all the more! Yes, even amidst miserable comforters--those who use Scripture out of context to judge and rebuke another.
This is an opportunity to shine for Him, and by His power and grace, I shall have victory over this...in His perfect time, in His perfect way! One day...some day...I know it will come...not my will, but Thine be done!
Nevertheless, I can say:
"It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes." Psalm 119:71
It has been well over 9 months...
9 months of waiting, longing, wondering, sacrificing...and even suffering
9 months of asking, seeking, and knocking
9 months of trusting...and obeying
4 whole months of not-so-pleasant domestication training for motherhood, and now...
3 whole weeks of "isolation"...
Isolation isn't necessarily a bad thing.
Actually, I often prefer to be alone...
Alone to have a one-on-one with God,
Alone to kick, scream, and cry to God...
Alone to take God's loud or subtle rebuke...
Alone to be more productive,
Alone to just be lazy...
Alone to just relax!
Alone doesn't always equate to loneliness!!!
But...
Alone doesn't always only mean I, me, and myself...
Alone could also mean:
Alone as the only adult in the room
Alone in your Christian walk at any given time and place
Alone because you cannot fully share your thoughts and emotions for better reasons...
Alone because those around you look up to you for spiritual, emotional, and physical support...
Alone because you really don't want them to see you break down...
Alone because you don't always want to bother someone else about your thoughts, your woes...
Alone because you have to be strong for others...
Thankfully, if you possess Christ...
You are never truly alone!
He is ever-present!
He gives me strength
He gives me hope
He gives me courage
He gives me patience
He gives me rest
He gives me peace
He gives me joy
He gives me the power to face my fears
He lets me break down on my knees
He lets me come to Him in tears
He shows others His love and sovereignty through my sadness
He provides for every step, every mile of the way...
It has been 9 long months...
And He is still here...
He never left!
He never has!
He never will!!!
Without Him,
I may not even be here...
With Christ, I'm never alone...
With Christ alone, I'll always be content.
Do you have Christ? Do you really know Him?
If you managed to read this to the very end, then know this: He is drawing you closer to Him...beginning today...right where you are!
I heard this saying once:
"God loves you right where you are, but He loves you way too much for you to stay there!"
So, don't delay...don't resist...because the only one who will truly (and sorely) lose...is YOU.
Get out of your comfort zone, dust off your Bible, and start following Him today! It's never too late for a fresh start on the right path! It may not always be the easiest one, but it's the best one for you.
Which path will you choose???
