Alone

This journey has undoubtedly been the most painful yet the most fruitful, so far. Yes, even more agonizing than my divorce years ago, as that can be explained with both logical and Biblical reasoning (I knew what the consequences would be). My current situation, however, seems to go beyond any human comprehension...and it is in such times that my faith is tried all the more! Yes, even amidst miserable comforters--those who use Scripture out of context to judge and rebuke another.

This is an opportunity to shine for Him, and by His power and grace, I shall have victory over this...in His perfect time, in His perfect way! One day...some day...I know it will come...not my will, but Thine be done!

Nevertheless, I can say:
"It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes." Psalm 119:71

It has been well over 9 months...

9 months of waiting, longing, wondering, sacrificing...and even suffering
9 months of asking, seeking, and knocking
9 months of trusting...and obeying
4 whole months of not-so-pleasant domestication training for motherhood, and now...
3 whole weeks of "isolation"...

Isolation isn't necessarily a bad thing.
Actually, I often prefer to be alone...
Alone to have a one-on-one with God,
Alone to kick, scream, and cry to God...
Alone to take God's loud or subtle rebuke...
Alone to be more productive,
Alone to just be lazy...
Alone to just relax!
Alone doesn't always equate to loneliness!!!

But...
Alone doesn't always only mean I, me, and myself...
Alone could also mean:
Alone as the only adult in the room
Alone in your Christian walk at any given time and place
Alone because you cannot fully share your thoughts and emotions for better reasons...
Alone because those around you look up to you for spiritual, emotional, and physical support...
Alone because you really don't want them to see you break down...
Alone because you don't always want to bother someone else about your thoughts, your woes...
Alone because you have to be strong for others...

Thankfully, if you possess Christ...
You are never truly alone!
He is ever-present!

He gives me strength
He gives me hope
He gives me courage
He gives me patience
He gives me rest
He gives me peace
He gives me joy

He gives me the power to face my fears
He lets me break down on my knees
He lets me come to Him in tears
He shows others His love and sovereignty through my sadness
He provides for every step, every mile of the way...

It has been 9 long months...
And He is still here...
He never left!
He never has!
He never will!!!

Without Him,
I may not even be here...

With Christ, I'm never alone...
With Christ alone, I'll always be content.

Do you have Christ? Do you really know Him?

If you managed to read this to the very end, then know this: He is drawing you closer to Him...beginning today...right where you are!

I heard this saying once:
"God loves you right where you are, but He loves you way too much for you to stay there!"

So, don't delay...don't resist...because the only one who will truly (and sorely) lose...is YOU.

Get out of your comfort zone, dust off your Bible, and start following Him today! It's never too late for a fresh start on the right path! It may not always be the easiest one, but it's the best one for you.

Which path will you choose???

Letting Go

Sometimes...
I don't understand
You got me this far,
You gave me these things
Just to leave them all behind
I shared them all
I even gave my all
But now...
You take them all away

I'll thank You now
While they're still here today
The moments slowly slip away
In a painful way
Such a painful way

I'm not giving up
I'm just letting go
Though where I'll be,
I just don't know
But I love You, so...
And I need You so...

I trust...
That You will make a way
To brighten my day,
To light up my way
Just to lead them to Your way
You love each one
You even gave Your Son
My life...
I give to You today!

I'll praise You now
Though these be gone away
Your presence takes the pain away
In a gentle way
Such a gentle way

I'm not giving up
I'm just letting go
Though where I'll be,
I just don't know
But I love You, so...
And I need You so...

So I'm letting go!
Yes, I'm letting go!

Sometimes...
I don't understand
But, I'm letting go
'Cause I love you so...

My Hiding Place

I reach out to You, Lord
Please reach out to me
All I want is You, Lord
I know You'll rescue me
Above the highest mountain
Below the deepest sea
Your love is so much greater
And I know You love me!

Be my Hiding Place
Oh, shower me with grace
And even when the shadows
Of fear take up my space
Be My Hiding Place
Oh, let me now embrace
The sweetness of Your presence
For all throughout my days...

Lord, You are my Maker
Lord, You are my Friend
Closer than a brother
You'll love me 'til the end
And though the stars come crashing
And my world starts crumbling
Your pow'r is so much greater
And onto You I'll cling!

You're my Hiding Place
Oh, shower me with grace
And even when the shadows
Of fear take up my space
You're my Hiding Place
Oh, let me now embrace
The sweetness of Your presence
For all throughout my days...

And, I'll just wait on You, Lord
In Your Word, I'll hope
I'll remember You, Lord
I'll remember You...

You're my Hiding Place
Oh, shower me with grace
And even when the shadows
Of fear take up my space
You're My Hiding Place
Oh, let me now embrace
The sweetness of Your presence
For all throughout my days...

You're my Hiding Place!