Reset: I'm an Introvert!

A great revelation came about just a few hours ago. I just discovered that my true personality is quite different from what I had always thought it to be! My perception happened to be in line with how others saw me, how they expected me to behave, and what I felt I had to be so that I could take action on unmet "societal" needs. I now am aware that being an ENTJ was a learned behavior on my part, as this is what has made me effective in my dealings with people and systems. No wonder I would always express the desire to break free and get away whenever there's an overabundance of stimuli! In addition, the move to Florida has been a big kick out of my comfort zone geographically, psychologically, and "behaviorally"...and to a certain degree, emotionally.

As I engaged in some introspection then and now, it has become apparent that I'm actually an INTP at its core. As I read through my past blogs, it is a clear indication that I'm a true introvert! I know this is hard to believe, but this is the truth from childhood and on up. So I can either choose to be like Bill Gates (ENTJ) or Albert Einstein (INTP). I'd say, "none of the above", for I aim and strive to be more like Christ each day, according to the Scriptures! I am "fearfully and wonderfully made" as God said in the book of Psalms, and I am fashioned by the Master's loving hands. Therefore, I am confident that only He knows me inside out, and that "He's Still Working On Me"!

Yes, it can definitely get quite frustrating at times when not too many people are able to understand me, given that my personality type is only 1% of the population (according to Keirsey's book, Please Understand Me II), and the majority of that 1% population is male. That makes it even worse! My biggest desire has always been to understand others (a select few), and this is hard when such people don't even understand me! More so, after all these years, I never really truly understood myself!

I thank God for bringing this to my attention. I feel led to believe that He is revealing a great truth to me in such a way that I needed to rediscover myself to uncover additional strengths that He wants me to use for His glory!

I believe I've just hit yet another major milestone. I wonder what the next major milestone will be. Only God knows. Only time will tell.

Time to reset, time to renew, time to let go of what's been holding me back in the last 6 months...time to let God.