Why Does History Repeat Itself?

I'm sure you've heard this one before: History repeats itself!

Strangely enough, I find myself being in an extremely similar situation that I had been in, 8 years ago. Similar faces, similar places, similar distractions, similar timing...and 2 weeks from now (Lord willing), the same address! The thing is, I do not want similar results.

In my case, this is happening because I have not completely learned my lessons to the fullest. I believe God is presenting me with yet another opportunity to go through this, and this time, come out victorious. I can clearly see that God is specifically working on one facet of my life that is quite underdeveloped: MY HEART.

God is working on my heart from all different directions.

A heart for God (in progress), a heart for others (in progress), what about a heart for...finding a significant other (not applicable), or even reconnecting with my ex (out of order!)? Now, that's really digging deep into the core of my emotions! While neither of the two have even nearly crossed my mind, I can't help but ask: Why, Lord? Why now? I'm doing just fine.

It seemed fine, until I got into a conversation with a very good friend. Quite frankly, I had never expected to become friends with this person earlier this year, nor had I imagined opening up to anyone (simply because I never saw the need)! I have never engaged in such a deep, open conversation in a very, very long time. At the end of the discussion, I walked away thinking, "Something's wrong, and I need to fix it!". Wake-up call: I can never truly say I'm doing just fine...apart from God's mercy and grace!!!

God used a true friend to be His messenger...one who came at a time when I didn't ask for a friend to talk to. After all, when things are fine, who needs a friend, right? WRONG! Since I've known him, I began to seek God even more. God places people in our lives, for a reason and for His purpose.

So, going back to "history repeating itself"...I may be faced with similar faces, places, distractions, and timing, but the difference is this: my desire to be more like God is stronger than it ever was before, and I so desperately want to remain in the center of His will for the rest of my life. God alone can enable me to break free from whatever bondage that besets me, and He alone has the power to make me victorious!

Eight years ago, I thought I was doing just fine. I even thought that I was doing okay, spiritually...as Satan whispered in my ear. God sent many messengers to me back then, but I chose not to heed them because of pride and arrogance. He sent another one today, and this time, I'm glad I opened my eyes, my heart, to what He had to say.

Take a closer look at your life. Is history repeating itself? Do you want the same results? If not, allow God to change that for you. When is the best time get started? There's no time like the present!

"So teach [us] to number our days, that we may apply [our] hearts unto wisdom." Psalm 90:12