While my mom and I are opposites in many, many ways, it is a blessing how 2 very different personalities can be united in prayer, because we serve, worship, and love the same God. As I had mentioned in my last post, my mom and I have recently enlisted each other as prayer partners...and we both have a very important prayer request for the upcoming week.
Since October of this year, I had already been sensing that there will be some sort of big transition happening again in my family's life. It is becoming more and more apparent to me as time progresses, and this time, it has also become apparent to my mom. This coming week will be very exciting (but not easy), one that we'll be capable of facing by the grace and power of God. God has truly been directing our steps, and I am looking forward to that next step which we have specifically asked that He would reveal by the end of next week. We have been prayerfully waiting and seeking out His plan for our family, and there have been quite a few developments in the last week or so. Can I please be more concrete?
Okay - for example, I am strongly considering moving back to Hawai'i. My heart has always longed to go back, yet I find myself torn right now. I want to be absolutely sure that this is what God wants - it's not about what I want. It's not about me. I have asked, I have sought, and I have knocked. Now, all I have to do is trust God. I don't own the results, He does! Isn't that great?
I completely trust that He will direct our path just in time. I can't wait to blog about it and reflect upon it in the future, bringing to remembrance God's sovereignty and love. Which reminds me - exactly 20 years ago was the time our family had left Guam...and exactly 2 years ago was the time our family made a decision to leave Hawai'i. I'm such an island girl with an island fever!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Just A-S-K
My mom and I have recently enlisted each other as prayer partners. Aside from Scripture, we have been reading "Partners in Prayer" by John Maxwell. I've been reminded about "how to ask" when praying. It's simply "A-S-K": ask - seek - knock.
As I face yet another transition in my life, I have learned to ask, seek, and knock. I have asked, I have sought, and I have found a few different avenues. I have prayed for guidance re: which avenue to take, but I guess I'll never know until I "prayerfully knock".
Right now, I'm at a crossroad. I don't know where I'll end up geographically, but one thing I do know: that I desire to always be in the center of God's will. I constantly ask Him to lead me where He wants me to be and do what He wants me to do. So, whether that be here in Orlando or back in Honolulu or even in the North Pole - wherever He leads, I'll go.
Earlier today, I showed up for an appointment that did not give me any clarity prior to the event. The lady on the phone did not want to disclose too much information, but I went anyway, just to check it out. Apparently, it's a different type of career service where they charge you an upfront fee of $3K-$7K, regardless of the results. I politely thanked the "counselor" and left. Later on today, I have a 1PM conference call with my previous employer in Honolulu. If God decides to completely open this door, I'll be moving back to Honolulu, in God's time.
Wherever He leads, I'll go.
As I face yet another transition in my life, I have learned to ask, seek, and knock. I have asked, I have sought, and I have found a few different avenues. I have prayed for guidance re: which avenue to take, but I guess I'll never know until I "prayerfully knock".
Right now, I'm at a crossroad. I don't know where I'll end up geographically, but one thing I do know: that I desire to always be in the center of God's will. I constantly ask Him to lead me where He wants me to be and do what He wants me to do. So, whether that be here in Orlando or back in Honolulu or even in the North Pole - wherever He leads, I'll go.
Earlier today, I showed up for an appointment that did not give me any clarity prior to the event. The lady on the phone did not want to disclose too much information, but I went anyway, just to check it out. Apparently, it's a different type of career service where they charge you an upfront fee of $3K-$7K, regardless of the results. I politely thanked the "counselor" and left. Later on today, I have a 1PM conference call with my previous employer in Honolulu. If God decides to completely open this door, I'll be moving back to Honolulu, in God's time.
Wherever He leads, I'll go.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Don't Give Up!
My son's Scripture memory verse for the week in school is Luke 1:37, "For with God nothing shall be impossible."
Here's a story worth sharing:
In 1883, a creative engineer named John Roebling was inspired by an idea to build a spectacular bridge connecting New York with the Long Island. However bridge building experts throughout the world thought that this was an impossible feat and told Roebling to forget the idea. It just could not be done. It was not practical. It had never been done before.
Roebling could not ignore the vision he had in his mind of this bridge. He thought about it all the time and he knew deep in his heart that it could be done. He just had to share the dream with someone else. After much discussion and persuasion, he managed to convince his son Washington, an up and coming engineer, that the bridge in fact could be built.
Working together for the first time, the father and son developed concepts of how it could be accomplished and how the obstacles could be overcome. With great excitement and inspiration, and the headiness of a wild challenge before them, they hired their crew and began to build their dream bridge.
The project started well, but when it was only a few months underway a tragic accident on the site took the life of John Roebling. Washington was injured and left with a certain amount of brain damage, which resulted in him not being able to walk or talk or even move.
"We told them so."
"Crazy men and their crazy dreams."
"It’s foolish to chase wild visions."
Everyone had a negative comment to make and felt that the project should be scrapped since the Roeblings were the only ones who knew how the bridge could be built. In spite of his handicap Washington was never discouraged and still had a burning desire to complete the bridge and his mind was still as sharp as ever.
He tried to inspire and pass on his enthusiasm to some of his friends, but they were too daunted by the task. As he lay on his bed in his hospital room, with the sunlight streaming through the windows, a gentle breeze blew the flimsy white curtains apart and he was able to see the sky and the tops of the trees outside for just a moment.
It seemed that there was a message for him not to give up. Suddenly an idea hit him. All he could do was move one finger and he decided to make the best use of it. By moving this, he slowly developed a code of communication with his wife.
He touched his wife's arm with that finger, indicating to her that he wanted her to call the engineers again. Then he used the same method of tapping her arm to tell the engineers what to do. It seemed foolish but the project was under way again.
For 13 years, Washington tapped out his instructions with his finger on his wife's arm, until the bridge was finally completed. Today the spectacular Brooklyn Bridge stands in all its glory as a tribute to the triumph of one man's indomitable spirit and his determination not to be defeated by circumstances. It is also a tribute to the engineers and their team work, and to their faith in a man who was considered mad by half the world. It stands too as a tangible monument to the love and devotion of his wife who for 13 long years patiently decoded the messages of her husband and told the engineers what to do.
Perhaps this is one of the best examples of a never-say-die attitude that overcomes a terrible physical handicap and achieves an impossible goal.
Often when we face obstacles in our day-to-day life, our hurdles seem very small in comparison to what many others have to face. The Brooklyn Bridge shows us that dreams that seem impossible can be realized with determination and persistence, no matter what the odds are.
Even the most distant dream can be realized with determination and persistence.
(From: bethei.blogspot.com/2007/07/determination.html)
Here's a story worth sharing:
In 1883, a creative engineer named John Roebling was inspired by an idea to build a spectacular bridge connecting New York with the Long Island. However bridge building experts throughout the world thought that this was an impossible feat and told Roebling to forget the idea. It just could not be done. It was not practical. It had never been done before.
Roebling could not ignore the vision he had in his mind of this bridge. He thought about it all the time and he knew deep in his heart that it could be done. He just had to share the dream with someone else. After much discussion and persuasion, he managed to convince his son Washington, an up and coming engineer, that the bridge in fact could be built.
Working together for the first time, the father and son developed concepts of how it could be accomplished and how the obstacles could be overcome. With great excitement and inspiration, and the headiness of a wild challenge before them, they hired their crew and began to build their dream bridge.
The project started well, but when it was only a few months underway a tragic accident on the site took the life of John Roebling. Washington was injured and left with a certain amount of brain damage, which resulted in him not being able to walk or talk or even move.
"We told them so."
"Crazy men and their crazy dreams."
"It’s foolish to chase wild visions."
Everyone had a negative comment to make and felt that the project should be scrapped since the Roeblings were the only ones who knew how the bridge could be built. In spite of his handicap Washington was never discouraged and still had a burning desire to complete the bridge and his mind was still as sharp as ever.
He tried to inspire and pass on his enthusiasm to some of his friends, but they were too daunted by the task. As he lay on his bed in his hospital room, with the sunlight streaming through the windows, a gentle breeze blew the flimsy white curtains apart and he was able to see the sky and the tops of the trees outside for just a moment.
It seemed that there was a message for him not to give up. Suddenly an idea hit him. All he could do was move one finger and he decided to make the best use of it. By moving this, he slowly developed a code of communication with his wife.
He touched his wife's arm with that finger, indicating to her that he wanted her to call the engineers again. Then he used the same method of tapping her arm to tell the engineers what to do. It seemed foolish but the project was under way again.
For 13 years, Washington tapped out his instructions with his finger on his wife's arm, until the bridge was finally completed. Today the spectacular Brooklyn Bridge stands in all its glory as a tribute to the triumph of one man's indomitable spirit and his determination not to be defeated by circumstances. It is also a tribute to the engineers and their team work, and to their faith in a man who was considered mad by half the world. It stands too as a tangible monument to the love and devotion of his wife who for 13 long years patiently decoded the messages of her husband and told the engineers what to do.
Perhaps this is one of the best examples of a never-say-die attitude that overcomes a terrible physical handicap and achieves an impossible goal.
Often when we face obstacles in our day-to-day life, our hurdles seem very small in comparison to what many others have to face. The Brooklyn Bridge shows us that dreams that seem impossible can be realized with determination and persistence, no matter what the odds are.
Even the most distant dream can be realized with determination and persistence.
(From: bethei.blogspot.com/2007/07/determination.html)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Happy Thanksgiving!
Gabe wanted me to play this song on the piano today.
Listen closely, you'll hear him humming in the background.
It's nice spending quality time with family :)
Another thing to be thankful for this Thanksgiving.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Ready to Live?
If you're not ready to die, then you're not ready to live.
Application: Laying aside self-interest is essential to all of our relationships. Once you are certain of your eternal destiny, then you're free to serve - devoting your life to what really counts without fear of dying.
Explanation: Jesus did not seek to promote Himself to a high position of significance to carry out God's plan here on Earth. He showed true humility when He laid aside his rights and privileges as God to become human. He poured out His life to pay the penalty we deserve.
Importance: Although education and focused effort may enable us to take a new role or get a new job, often God puts us in a place to serve. We are to take Christ's attitude in serving others, and Christ gives us power to lay aside our personal needs and concerns! We must renounce personal recognition and merit. When we give up our self-interest, we can serve with joy, love, and kindness.
Reminder: When God starts a project, He finishes it.
"Being confident of this very thing, that He which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." Philippians 1:6
Source: Tyndale's Life Application Study Bible
Application: Laying aside self-interest is essential to all of our relationships. Once you are certain of your eternal destiny, then you're free to serve - devoting your life to what really counts without fear of dying.
Explanation: Jesus did not seek to promote Himself to a high position of significance to carry out God's plan here on Earth. He showed true humility when He laid aside his rights and privileges as God to become human. He poured out His life to pay the penalty we deserve.
Importance: Although education and focused effort may enable us to take a new role or get a new job, often God puts us in a place to serve. We are to take Christ's attitude in serving others, and Christ gives us power to lay aside our personal needs and concerns! We must renounce personal recognition and merit. When we give up our self-interest, we can serve with joy, love, and kindness.
Reminder: When God starts a project, He finishes it.
"Being confident of this very thing, that He which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ." Philippians 1:6
Source: Tyndale's Life Application Study Bible
Monday, November 24, 2008
Friday, November 21, 2008
One Hour At A Time
A man's store was destroyed by fire. And to make matters worse, he had failed to renew his fire insurance...An old friend asked how he was coping with the shocking loss..."I'm getting along just fine," he said. "I had breakfast this morning, and it isn't time to eat again"...Not only was he taking one day at a time, he was also taking one hour at a time...
Jesus doesn't want us to be burdened with the needless weight of anxiety about the future...We must refuse to fret about the things over which we have no control. Then we can rejoice in God's sustaining grace - one day at at time.
"Do not worry about tomorrow...Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." Matthew 6:34
Source: Our Daily Bread
Jesus doesn't want us to be burdened with the needless weight of anxiety about the future...We must refuse to fret about the things over which we have no control. Then we can rejoice in God's sustaining grace - one day at at time.
"Do not worry about tomorrow...Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." Matthew 6:34
Source: Our Daily Bread
Thursday, November 20, 2008
What Fills Your Heart?
During one of his sermons, Hudson Taylor, pioneer missionary to China, filled a glass with water and placed it on a table in front of him. While he was speaking, he pounded is fist hard enough to make the water splash onto the table. He then explained, "You will come up against much trouble. But when you do, remember, only what's in you will spill out."
That's worth thinking about, isn't it? When we live under the control of the Holy Spirit, we will show it by the way we react to the jolting trials and temptations of life. If our heart is full of the Savior's love, we will respond to the jostling...with patience and kindness.
Source: Our Daily Bread
That's worth thinking about, isn't it? When we live under the control of the Holy Spirit, we will show it by the way we react to the jolting trials and temptations of life. If our heart is full of the Savior's love, we will respond to the jostling...with patience and kindness.
Source: Our Daily Bread
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Contentment
Over the past 15 years, a New Jersey businessman has anonymously given away more than $600 million to universities, medical centers, and other beneficiaries. When a legal complication forced him to reveal his identity, he explained his generosity by saying, "Nobody can wear 2 pairs of shoes at one time. I simply decided I had enough money." A friend...described him as a man who doesn't own a house or a car, flies economy class, wears a $15 watch, and "didn't want his money to crush him"...
It seems so natural and sensible to grasp rather than to give. Money is what you make it - a master or a servant.
"Godliness with contentment is great gain." 1 Timothy 6:6
Source: Our Daily Bread
It seems so natural and sensible to grasp rather than to give. Money is what you make it - a master or a servant.
"Godliness with contentment is great gain." 1 Timothy 6:6
Source: Our Daily Bread
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Free-Thinker
Contrary to my friends' opinion, I'm not an extrovert. Ask the people in Youth Camp and in college.
The last 90 days have truly been a journey of discovering God's calling while really learning more about myself. When I was so career driven, my results were that of an ENTJ...at home, an INTP,...and overall, an INTJ. I can't even get my personality profile right the first time! Toggling between these personalities comes naturally, but the best description so far, is that of an INTJ (Free-Thinker/Strategist). It hit so many buzz words, it's not even funny (Mom, are you reading this?). Mom reminded me today (while fulfilling her request to help her shop for shoes and clothes) that the best place to be when dealing with people, circumstances, etc., is to be "Spirit-filled". Considering my natural inclinations, she's right even more so! Here it is: http://www.geocities.com/lifexplore/intj.htm
In addition:
The last 90 days have truly been a journey of discovering God's calling while really learning more about myself. When I was so career driven, my results were that of an ENTJ...at home, an INTP,...and overall, an INTJ. I can't even get my personality profile right the first time! Toggling between these personalities comes naturally, but the best description so far, is that of an INTJ (Free-Thinker/Strategist). It hit so many buzz words, it's not even funny (Mom, are you reading this?). Mom reminded me today (while fulfilling her request to help her shop for shoes and clothes) that the best place to be when dealing with people, circumstances, etc., is to be "Spirit-filled". Considering my natural inclinations, she's right even more so! Here it is: http://www.geocities.com/lifexplore/intj.htm
In addition:
- Be willing to back up your statements with facts - or at least some pretty sound reasoning.
- Don't expect them to respect you or your viewpoints just because you say so. INTJ respect must be earned.
- Be willing to concede when you are wrong. The average INTJ respects the truth over being "right". Withdraw your erroneous comment and admit your mistake and they will see you as a very reasonable person. Stick to erroneous comments and they will think you are an irrational idiot and treat everything you say as being questionable.
- Try not to be repetitive. It annoys them.
- Do not feed them a line of nonsense.
- Expect debate. INTJs like to tear ideas apart and prove their worthiness. They will even argue a point they don't actually support for the sake of argument.
- Do not mistake the strength of your conviction with the strength of your argument. INTJs do not need to believe in a position to argue it or argue it well. Therefore, it will take more than fervor to sway them.
- Do not be surprised at sarcasm.
- Remember that INTJs believe in workable solutions. They are extremely open-minded to possibilities, but they will quickly discard any idea that is unfeasible. INTJ open-mindedness means that they are willing to have a go at an idea by trying to pull it apart. This horrifies people who expect oohs and ahhs and reverence. The ultimate INTJ insult to an idea is to ignore it, because that means it's not even interesting enough to deconstruct.
This also means that they will not just accept any viewpoint that is presented to them. The bottom line is "Does it work?" - end discussion. - Do not expect INTJs to actually care about how you view them. They already know that they are arrogant with a morbid sense of humor. Telling them the obvious accomplishes nothing.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Discovering God's Calling
It's been quite an interesting week! I attended faith-based events from Sunday through Friday! Topics were all centered around giving.
Long ago, God had convicted me about giving "His" money to the ministry. Later, He challenged me to give more...and more. Next, He convicted me about giving Him the talents He has given me. Shortly after, He showed me how I can also use the assets He has blessed me with for His glory. In doing so, I've learned to simplify my life and give more of my time to the Lord; and, in all of this, He has always given me great joy beyond any measure! But, it doesn't simply end there. Just in the last few weeks, He has been impressing upon my heart to also give of my professional skills, including much of the time that I would normally allot for "work". I don't believe I would have heard His calling if I were still in Hawai'i. I was then in my comfort zone, snoozing my so-called beautiful life away in Paradise!
I've been in Orlando for 21 months now. I've never been exposed to so many Christians outside of my church in my entire adult life!!! I experienced this only within a 90-day period! Now I can see why God had instructed me to leave Hawai'i (a place with family, church friends/friends, and job that I loved so much). He also instructed me to leave my first job back in Orlando just at the height of success! Best of all, He allowed me to enter these transitions with no fear. Just plain faith that He is in control and that He will provide (most times, my faith is only the size of a mustard seed). During such uncertainties of change, not to mention our current political and economic conditions, God continues to challenge me: "give some more!"
I know God doesn't need anyone's money. He only wants our heart, our full surrender. You can quickly tell a person's "heart condition" depending on "how" (not by how much) he/she gives. Trust me, it's never easy. But, the results are always phenomenal! No, I don't give to be blessed. I give because I've already been blessed! The meaning of prosperity all depends on the "heart" of the beholder.
I was invited to attend an all-day Generous Giving Forum today at the Villas of Grand Cypress in Lake Buena Vista, Florida. Here, God reminded me of a great passage in 2 Corinthians 9:12-13 where 3 phrases re: being a cheerful giver truly hit home:
In closing, here's the math in determining God's calling for my life:
Teaching + Giving + Students + Global = God wants me to teach the principles of giving to students (young and old) on a global scale.
...Hence another new and exciting project for me! Stay tuned...
Long ago, God had convicted me about giving "His" money to the ministry. Later, He challenged me to give more...and more. Next, He convicted me about giving Him the talents He has given me. Shortly after, He showed me how I can also use the assets He has blessed me with for His glory. In doing so, I've learned to simplify my life and give more of my time to the Lord; and, in all of this, He has always given me great joy beyond any measure! But, it doesn't simply end there. Just in the last few weeks, He has been impressing upon my heart to also give of my professional skills, including much of the time that I would normally allot for "work". I don't believe I would have heard His calling if I were still in Hawai'i. I was then in my comfort zone, snoozing my so-called beautiful life away in Paradise!
I've been in Orlando for 21 months now. I've never been exposed to so many Christians outside of my church in my entire adult life!!! I experienced this only within a 90-day period! Now I can see why God had instructed me to leave Hawai'i (a place with family, church friends/friends, and job that I loved so much). He also instructed me to leave my first job back in Orlando just at the height of success! Best of all, He allowed me to enter these transitions with no fear. Just plain faith that He is in control and that He will provide (most times, my faith is only the size of a mustard seed). During such uncertainties of change, not to mention our current political and economic conditions, God continues to challenge me: "give some more!"
I know God doesn't need anyone's money. He only wants our heart, our full surrender. You can quickly tell a person's "heart condition" depending on "how" (not by how much) he/she gives. Trust me, it's never easy. But, the results are always phenomenal! No, I don't give to be blessed. I give because I've already been blessed! The meaning of prosperity all depends on the "heart" of the beholder.
I was invited to attend an all-day Generous Giving Forum today at the Villas of Grand Cypress in Lake Buena Vista, Florida. Here, God reminded me of a great passage in 2 Corinthians 9:12-13 where 3 phrases re: being a cheerful giver truly hit home:
- Not only supplying the needs of God's people
- Overflowing in many expressions of thanks to God
- Men will praise God for the obedience
In closing, here's the math in determining God's calling for my life:
Teaching + Giving + Students + Global = God wants me to teach the principles of giving to students (young and old) on a global scale.
...Hence another new and exciting project for me! Stay tuned...
Friday, November 14, 2008
All I Need
All I Need
Father, my heart is breaking
You know I don’t mean to cry
I don’t know what it is I’m asking
I can’t help but wonder why
You’re all I need
All that I need
To heal my heart
And lift me up
You’re all that I need
To share your love
And give my all to You
Only You…
Father, You know what hurts me
I don’t want to run away
You are my Strength, You are my Shield
To You I will run and find Your way
You’re all I need
All that I need
To heal my heart
And lift me up
You’re all that I need
To share your love
And give my all to You
Only You…
You give me hope
To carry on
You give me grace
You gave Your Son…
You’re all I need
All that I need
To heal my heart
And lift me up
You’re all that I need
To share your love
And give my all to You
Only You….
Only You….
You’re all I need….
Father, my heart is breaking
You know I don’t mean to cry
I don’t know what it is I’m asking
I can’t help but wonder why
You’re all I need
All that I need
To heal my heart
And lift me up
You’re all that I need
To share your love
And give my all to You
Only You…
Father, You know what hurts me
I don’t want to run away
You are my Strength, You are my Shield
To You I will run and find Your way
You’re all I need
All that I need
To heal my heart
And lift me up
You’re all that I need
To share your love
And give my all to You
Only You…
You give me hope
To carry on
You give me grace
You gave Your Son…
You’re all I need
All that I need
To heal my heart
And lift me up
You’re all that I need
To share your love
And give my all to You
Only You….
Only You….
You’re all I need….
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Downtown Baptist Church of Orlando
We concluded the series of Bible Study Luncheons for Working Women at Downtown Baptist Church of Orlando last week. Below is an email we received from the facilitator, Joy Chambers, along with some great resources/books that aided her in her preparation:
This fall, it has been such an awesome journey to study great women of the Bible, while serving alongside great women of DBC, and teaching great women of downtown Orlando. You all are special blessings to me, and I trust that God has encouraged your hearts as He has mine, as we have seen His hand at work in and through lives of women from the very first woman, until today. Mary's hope as she stood at the foot of the cross, was what she knew was coming in the future...the return of Christ; she would see Him again one day. Her hope is our hope. God bless each one of you and may you never stop reading, listening to, and studying the Word of God. Follow Him - that is our calling!
Love in Christ - Joy Chambers
Here are some of the study books I used in my preparation - maybe you are inspired to continue on - let me know what you learn!
Great books on the topic of women in the Bible:
Twelve Extraordinary Women, John MacArthur
Women of the Bible (one year devotional study of women in Scripture), Ann Spangler & Jean E. Syswerda- this is great for ongoing study - it takes a woman per week.
Bad Girls of the Bible, Liz Curtis Higgs
Her Name is Woman, Books 1,2 by Gien Karssen - older but great books.
Lost Women of the Bible, Carolyn Custiss James
The Gospel of Ruth, by Carolyn Custiss James
This fall, it has been such an awesome journey to study great women of the Bible, while serving alongside great women of DBC, and teaching great women of downtown Orlando. You all are special blessings to me, and I trust that God has encouraged your hearts as He has mine, as we have seen His hand at work in and through lives of women from the very first woman, until today. Mary's hope as she stood at the foot of the cross, was what she knew was coming in the future...the return of Christ; she would see Him again one day. Her hope is our hope. God bless each one of you and may you never stop reading, listening to, and studying the Word of God. Follow Him - that is our calling!
Love in Christ - Joy Chambers
Here are some of the study books I used in my preparation - maybe you are inspired to continue on - let me know what you learn!
Great books on the topic of women in the Bible:
Twelve Extraordinary Women, John MacArthur
Women of the Bible (one year devotional study of women in Scripture), Ann Spangler & Jean E. Syswerda- this is great for ongoing study - it takes a woman per week.
Bad Girls of the Bible, Liz Curtis Higgs
Her Name is Woman, Books 1,2 by Gien Karssen - older but great books.
Lost Women of the Bible, Carolyn Custiss James
The Gospel of Ruth, by Carolyn Custiss James
Saturday, November 8, 2008
Possessions...
"I have held many things in my hand and lost them all, but whatever I have placed in God's hands, that I always possess." - Martin Luther
"When you have nothing left but God...you become aware that God is enough." - A. Maude Royden
"He who has God and everything has nothing more than he who has God alone." - C.S. Lewis
"You can tell the worth of a person by what he dreams worthy of his time, talents, and treasures." - Unknown
"When you have nothing left but God...you become aware that God is enough." - A. Maude Royden
"He who has God and everything has nothing more than he who has God alone." - C.S. Lewis
"You can tell the worth of a person by what he dreams worthy of his time, talents, and treasures." - Unknown
Monday, October 20, 2008
Points to Ponder
Some points to think about this week:
1) We always want the answer(s) to the "Big Why". We don't need answers. We need God, and He alone is ALL we need when we are hurting, suffering, etc. In his suffering Job asked "Why", but God never gave him an answer. Instead, God gave him all he ever needed: His presence.
2) Sin will take you farther than you want to go, keep you longer than you want to stay, and cost you more than you want to pay.
3) Hurting people are hurtful people. Love them anyway. It may confuse them at first, then it draws them next. When you respond right when others treat you wrong, their first response would be to treat you worse (like a test). Keep at it, and you'll see the walls start crumbling down. Respond as Jesus would.
4) Churches are not museums for saints, they are hospitals for sinners.
5) When we judge, we reveal our own heart. What we see is what we are. It's the law of recognition.
1) We always want the answer(s) to the "Big Why". We don't need answers. We need God, and He alone is ALL we need when we are hurting, suffering, etc. In his suffering Job asked "Why", but God never gave him an answer. Instead, God gave him all he ever needed: His presence.
2) Sin will take you farther than you want to go, keep you longer than you want to stay, and cost you more than you want to pay.
3) Hurting people are hurtful people. Love them anyway. It may confuse them at first, then it draws them next. When you respond right when others treat you wrong, their first response would be to treat you worse (like a test). Keep at it, and you'll see the walls start crumbling down. Respond as Jesus would.
4) Churches are not museums for saints, they are hospitals for sinners.
5) When we judge, we reveal our own heart. What we see is what we are. It's the law of recognition.
Saturday, October 18, 2008
4 Prayers
Are you ready to pray these 4 prayers? God truly spoke to me with this message from last Sunday at Palm Springs Drive Baptist Church.
1) "Search Me"
Example: Flashlight
2) "Break Me" - Psalm 34:18
Example: Glow Stick - it doesn't achieve its purpose until it is broken
3) "Stretch Me"
Example: Bungee Cord - When it is stretched, it has strength.
4) "Send Me" - Isaiah 6:1-8
Example: Suit Case - God is in the habit of sending us to places with great need.
You may say, "I'm ready to go". Question is, "did you pack your suit case?"
Where has God sent you these days???
1) "Search Me"
Example: Flashlight
2) "Break Me" - Psalm 34:18
Example: Glow Stick - it doesn't achieve its purpose until it is broken
3) "Stretch Me"
Example: Bungee Cord - When it is stretched, it has strength.
4) "Send Me" - Isaiah 6:1-8
Example: Suit Case - God is in the habit of sending us to places with great need.
You may say, "I'm ready to go". Question is, "did you pack your suit case?"
Where has God sent you these days???
Saturday, October 11, 2008
20-Day Campaign
In 20 days, I strongly believe God will reveal something very significant to me that will again bring about change.
2008 has undoubtedly been the most eventful year of my life, and it isn't even over yet! And, October has been the most eventful month so far. (Historically, it has always been April. Now, it's October. These months happen to be my kids' birthday month!)
As I fill these 20 days with prayer, I shall commit to engaging in a 20-day campaign to recognize at least 20 people who have recently made a big, positive impact in my life, my family's life...one day at a time.
God is always at work, whether we choose to join Him or not. I can clearly sense that He is mightily working in my life right now. I must prepare myself spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically. I may not be clear regarding "what" it is,...but I am "convicted" that while waiting, I shall continue to serve Him and others around me, regardless of what is coming my way. I must step back and detach myself, let go...be still so I can sense more of God's presence and leading...especially in the next 20 days. This may hurt.
Reading:
Philippians 3 - Joy in Believing
Philippians 4 - Joy in Giving
2008 has undoubtedly been the most eventful year of my life, and it isn't even over yet! And, October has been the most eventful month so far. (Historically, it has always been April. Now, it's October. These months happen to be my kids' birthday month!)
As I fill these 20 days with prayer, I shall commit to engaging in a 20-day campaign to recognize at least 20 people who have recently made a big, positive impact in my life, my family's life...one day at a time.
God is always at work, whether we choose to join Him or not. I can clearly sense that He is mightily working in my life right now. I must prepare myself spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically. I may not be clear regarding "what" it is,...but I am "convicted" that while waiting, I shall continue to serve Him and others around me, regardless of what is coming my way. I must step back and detach myself, let go...be still so I can sense more of God's presence and leading...especially in the next 20 days. This may hurt.
Reading:
Philippians 3 - Joy in Believing
Philippians 4 - Joy in Giving
Friday, October 10, 2008
My Favorite Elephant Story
There was once a story of an elephant in a zoo
He cried day in and day out
"What happened?" a visitor asked
"He accidentally sat on a big nail,"
Said the zookeeper.
"So, why isn't he getting up?"
"Well, it's obviously painful enough to make him cry...
But it's not painful enough to make him move."
Don't just sit there. Do something!
He cried day in and day out
"What happened?" a visitor asked
"He accidentally sat on a big nail,"
Said the zookeeper.
"So, why isn't he getting up?"
"Well, it's obviously painful enough to make him cry...
But it's not painful enough to make him move."
Don't just sit there. Do something!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
About: Rescue
Meditating On: Psalm 46
Theme: God is always there to help, providing refuge, security, and peace. God's power is complete and His ultimate victory is certain. He will not fail to rescue those who love Him.
Theme: God is always there to help, providing refuge, security, and peace. God's power is complete and His ultimate victory is certain. He will not fail to rescue those who love Him.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Depressed?
Elijah's Great Battle With Depression
Source: Faith Bible Institute Study Guide - Volume IV
We may be shocked that such a bold prophet of faith could so quickly have become a fearful and fleeing prophet who sunk into suicidal depression and despair. However, this portion of Scripture teaches us several truths concerning the causes and cures of depression.
Source: Faith Bible Institute Study Guide - Volume IV
We may be shocked that such a bold prophet of faith could so quickly have become a fearful and fleeing prophet who sunk into suicidal depression and despair. However, this portion of Scripture teaches us several truths concerning the causes and cures of depression.
- The Who of Depression: The first thing we must learn is that no one is immune to depression.
a. Spirituality does not guarantee that you will not battle depression.
b. It does, however, give us access to Scriptural Principles and Scriptural Power to deal with and conquer depression. Elijah did not flee, but he knew to Whom to run. - The Why of Depression: Elijah's depression was caused by a number of factors.
a. Prolonged Emotional Stress - after hiding out for 3.5 years.
b. Extreme Emotional Stress - in facing the prophets of Baal.
c. Emotional Fatigue - which follows joy as well as sorrow.
d. Disappointment - after his great victory was followed by threats on his life instead of revival (the triggering event).
e. Isolationism - feeling he alone still served God.
f. Physical Fatigue - caused by his great journeys
g. Physical Weakness - caused by his lack of food.
h. Satanic Opposition - It has been often been Satan's ploy to attack us just after great spiritual victory, when we are tempted to drop our guard and prone to pride and self-sufficiency. - The How of Dealing with Depression (from Elijah's example):
a. Recognize that God must be part of your solution from the first - Elijah headed straight from the Mountain of Baal to the Mountain of God.
b. Deal with Physical and Fatigue factors at the start - God caused Elijah to eat and sleep before the first word of counsel. (1 Kings 19: 5-7)
c. Seek Spiritual (and Scriptural) counsel. (1 Kings 19:9-10, 15)
d. Spend time in the presence of God in honest prayer and listening to His Word. (1 Kings 19:9-14)
e. Get busy - stay active even when you don't feel like it. (1 Kings 19:15a)
f. Find God's purpose for your life and fulfill it. (1 Kings 19:15b-17)
g. Recognize that you are not alone. (1 Kings 19:18)
h. Get back around other people and develop good relationships. (1 Kings 19:19-21)
Unedited Feelings
Claiming: Romans 8:28
Meditating On: Psalm 88
Theme: When there is no relief in sight, God understands even our deepest misery.
Commentary:
Have you ever felt as if you have hit bottom? The writer is so low he even despairs of life itself. Although everything is bad and getting worse, he is able to tell it all to God. This is one of the few psalms that gives no answer or expression of hope. Don't think that you must always be cheerful and positive. Grief and depression take time to heal. No matter how we feel, we can always take our problems to God and express our anguish to Him.
Our feelings may be as obvious and painful as those expressed by the psalm writer, but they are never the complete picture. In fact, our feelings are usually very unstable. When we bring our unedited feelings to God, we allow Him to point out where they are incomplete. We are in trouble whenever we give our feelings divine authority or assume that God can't handle what we feel. Praying the psalms teaches us to bring God everything about us and trains us to experience His presence even when our feelings tell us otherwise.
Source: Tyndale's Life Application Study Bible - KJV
Meditating On: Psalm 88
Theme: When there is no relief in sight, God understands even our deepest misery.
Commentary:
Have you ever felt as if you have hit bottom? The writer is so low he even despairs of life itself. Although everything is bad and getting worse, he is able to tell it all to God. This is one of the few psalms that gives no answer or expression of hope. Don't think that you must always be cheerful and positive. Grief and depression take time to heal. No matter how we feel, we can always take our problems to God and express our anguish to Him.
Our feelings may be as obvious and painful as those expressed by the psalm writer, but they are never the complete picture. In fact, our feelings are usually very unstable. When we bring our unedited feelings to God, we allow Him to point out where they are incomplete. We are in trouble whenever we give our feelings divine authority or assume that God can't handle what we feel. Praying the psalms teaches us to bring God everything about us and trains us to experience His presence even when our feelings tell us otherwise.
Source: Tyndale's Life Application Study Bible - KJV
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Strike 2!!!
I find birdwatching to be very fascinating, and I could still remember the time when I was feeding a raven. Ravens are very greedy birds, but despite this inherent trait, God still used this bird in a mighty way in Elijah's life. The Bible depicts Elijah as a great man of faith. He was the second man on Earth to meet God without dying (Enoch was the first). 1 Kings 17:2-24 talks about God's provision and Elijah's faith, obedience, and perseverance. In this story, Elijah obeys God's command to hide from wicked King Ahab at Brook Cherith during a drought. God provides ravens to faithfully feed him bread and meat twice daily. This is amazing, because ravens are noted for neglecting even their own young due to their greediness. As time progresses, the brook slowly dries up, but Elijah chooses to stay there until God tells him to move.So many lessons can be learned from this story. The ones that strike me today are as follows:
1) If God can use a greedy raven to care for His faithful servant, He can use anyone, including me.
2) No problem is too big for God. He can choose to supernaturally provide for our needs, like how He used the greedy ravens to faithfully feed Elijah twice each day.
- I can always trust that God will provide for my needs, especially when I obey Him, regardless of my circumstances, geographical location, etc.
3) If God tells me to go somewhere, I should go there and stay there, regardless of the challenges and difficulties, until He tells me to move.
Personal Application: I know that God clearly told me to move to Florida and I know that He placed me where I am at today. During this journey, He has faithfully provided for all of my needs (and more) through various past and present sources. Yes, life can be challenging for me sometimes, but I pray that I will not allow my circumstances and my flesh to control me. I'll joyfully choose to stay where I'm at, until God tells me to move.
I still don't know why I'm here. Perhaps very recently, I may have unintentionally failed the first opportunity to carry out one of His purposes. As I humbly asked for forgiveness today, God comforted and assured me that His will--not mine--will always prevail, regardless if I mess up (intentionally or unintentionally). Good to know, especially since it's always so easy for me to mess up in certain things, in many things. I don't know about you, but I've still got a lot of growing-up to do! I pray that God will give me another opportunity to pass the same test that I just failed miserably. Ouch, I just flunked my first test!!! Wait a second, this was my second test. The first test happened exactly 8 years ago, and guess what? I failed that one, too! Oh, and I happened to live in Orlando during that time, as well!
Strike 3 is not an option, so Lord, please help me! Please open my eyes, my heart, to what You're trying to say and do...and by the way, please give me a third chance. And, please help me prepare this time, so I'll know what to do.
I don't like failing, but most of all, I don't like failing God.
So anyway, while I'm here, I'll continue to serve God and others joyfully with the talents and abilities He has blessed me with. And, if ever I miss a step in the process, I know He'll deliver me whenever I would humbly come to Him for help. I'm not going anywhere, until then.
Like with Elijah, God used the raven to teach me many valuable lessons today...
Back In My Bat Cave
Today, I woke up feeling different. Something is going on inside my head, my heart, and I can't even express it. There are still some things about me that I don't understand, why I react the way I do in certain areas, situations, etc...regardless of how I've been coached about it in the past and in the present. It's really a horrible feeling because it's something I don't think I can control. Unfamiliar territory. Something I can't seem to grasp. What am I supposed to do? What am I supposed to say? What am I supposed to think? I really don't know. I really don't understand. I really don't know what to do next (on my own). Especially in times like these, I become more grateful than ever that God knows me. He sees my heart. My actions may be misleading, I might be very difficult to read, but God knows me well...and He knows what's best for me. I shall lay this at His feet...pick up my pencil...lock myself up in my bat cave...and sketch some cute penguins. I haven't sketched in over 10 years. This will be interesting.Thanking God for His promise in 1 Peter 5: 7 KJV, "Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you."
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Back to Basics
This message is dedicated to my children, Diego and Gabriel.
In a journey to find ourselves
We sometimes forget who we truly are
Where we came from
What we have been through
What worked
And what didn't work
And if and when we finally realize
That things stopped working during this long journey
We must first look up to God
And He will show us
To look back at the things that made things work
And Who made them all to work
To remember to go back to the basics
So we can now look ahead and press forward
Without leaving the most important things behind.
Live simply, bless richly.
And don't forget to start at home.
God has moved me to just start typing tonight, and in a minute's time, an important message was created. It may have only taken me one minute to write this, but may the impact be eternal.
In a journey to find ourselves
We sometimes forget who we truly are
Where we came from
What we have been through
What worked
And what didn't work
And if and when we finally realize
That things stopped working during this long journey
We must first look up to God
And He will show us
To look back at the things that made things work
And Who made them all to work
To remember to go back to the basics
So we can now look ahead and press forward
Without leaving the most important things behind.
Live simply, bless richly.
And don't forget to start at home.
God has moved me to just start typing tonight, and in a minute's time, an important message was created. It may have only taken me one minute to write this, but may the impact be eternal.
Greater Orlando Scavenger Hunt - AppleOne
First Draft
This video was made specifically for AppleOne.
To view the main promo video for the Greater Orlando Scavenger Hunt,
visit scavengerhunt.ning.com.
Additional videos are being posted to this site each day!
NOTE:
This was all created using my macbook pro's basic video editing software
(and this includes capturing video). Go, Apple!
Final Version (My Previous Coworkers):
This video was made specifically for AppleOne.
To view the main promo video for the Greater Orlando Scavenger Hunt,
visit scavengerhunt.ning.com.
Additional videos are being posted to this site each day!
NOTE:
This was all created using my macbook pro's basic video editing software
(and this includes capturing video). Go, Apple!
Final Version (My Previous Coworkers):
Monday, September 29, 2008
What Gives God Joy
The theme of Psalm 147 is about "What Gives God Joy". Although God created everything, His greatest joy comes from our genuine worship and trust. God is greater than all of our problems, all of our fears, all of our troubles...isn't He worthy of our praise?
A Chapter Ends
Last week was truly a trying week. Amid my already-hectic personal schedule, I had to help out with at least 6 emergencies that weren't really my own (from a humanistic standpoint). Before sinking into a mire of despair, I called upon my Heavenly Father for help...and He gave me a mother's loving touch to weather the storm (in my case, it seemed to be more like a series of hurricanes...must be hurricane season, inside and out...proof that I'm now a Florida resident).
My body has a way of telling me when I've had enough. I would always experience severe back pain that the doctors could not explain...and painkillers aren't much help, if at all. At approximately 11:00PM on a Thursday night, I found myself frantically getting inside my vehicle with my screaming and kicking 2-year-old (try waking up a toddler in the middle of his sleep). Barely able to get my keys in the ignition, God guided me to safely find my way to my mom's house. By God's grace, the pain went away as the week came to an end.
As the end of the 3rd quarter approaches as this week begins, I am already faced with 2 significant changes that just took place in the last few hours. I would not have welcomed either of the two had this unexpected event taken place earlier. God certainly knew how to "prep" me for this change, and now, it is something that I have learned to embrace, accept, and appreciate...something that I realized I needed after all (it took me 2.5 months + exposure to new people + new experiences + a dose of love + humility to figure this out).
This is just another reminder that God's plan is much better than mine. His timing is much better than mine. As I close one short chapter of my life and open up a new one today, I am excited to see what God has in store for me this week and the years beyond. May He continue to use me to positively affect the lives of others for His glory.
As the song's chorus goes:
Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand; But I know Who holds tomorrow, And I know Who holds my hand.
My body has a way of telling me when I've had enough. I would always experience severe back pain that the doctors could not explain...and painkillers aren't much help, if at all. At approximately 11:00PM on a Thursday night, I found myself frantically getting inside my vehicle with my screaming and kicking 2-year-old (try waking up a toddler in the middle of his sleep). Barely able to get my keys in the ignition, God guided me to safely find my way to my mom's house. By God's grace, the pain went away as the week came to an end.
As the end of the 3rd quarter approaches as this week begins, I am already faced with 2 significant changes that just took place in the last few hours. I would not have welcomed either of the two had this unexpected event taken place earlier. God certainly knew how to "prep" me for this change, and now, it is something that I have learned to embrace, accept, and appreciate...something that I realized I needed after all (it took me 2.5 months + exposure to new people + new experiences + a dose of love + humility to figure this out).
This is just another reminder that God's plan is much better than mine. His timing is much better than mine. As I close one short chapter of my life and open up a new one today, I am excited to see what God has in store for me this week and the years beyond. May He continue to use me to positively affect the lives of others for His glory.
As the song's chorus goes:
Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand; But I know Who holds tomorrow, And I know Who holds my hand.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
The Best Years
2005 and 2006 were undeniably the best years of my adult life so far. I keep looking back to those years, thanking God for allowing me to experience them, while constantly asking why He uprooted me out of them...
As Job said in Job 1:21, "The LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD."
What I've lost doesn't come close to what Job lost. What I've left behind doesn't come close to what Jesus had left behind to come to Earth in the form of a Man to die for our sins. Yet, my heart is heavy. It's been heavy for 1.5 years now, and I know that only God can lift this heavy burden...the big "why". Have I completely shared this with anyone? No. Do I want to? Maybe not. Should I? I don't know. I can't even express it. I can't rationalize. Most times, I don't even want to deal with it. It weighs me down. Others may think it's not a big deal. To me, it is. If it's important to me, it's important to God.
I keep looking back to when I was 24-25 years old. It was the time when God had freed me from an abusive relationship up until He moved me out of Hawai'i. Those were awesome times. They may have been extremely busy times, but life finally felt "normal" then. I felt free. I felt more capable and available to be there for my family when they needed me. I felt in control. I felt secure. I was extremely comfortable. Then, my foundations shook. Should I have allowed them to be shaken? Should I have turned my back on those who needed me? Should I have just stayed put? Did I make the wrong decision to move to Florida? Did God not speak to me and assure me that I was doing the right thing? Was that only a figment of my imagination? Was I just hearing things? Was I truly trusting God? Am I following God's plan or my plan? Am I where I am supposed to be? Am I doing what He wants me to do? Have I been making the right decisions? Am I basing my actions on things that would justify the decisions that I made, whether they were right or wrong? Is it time to hit the breaks, with the humbling realization that I've made the wrong choices? If I continue to tread down the wrong path, course correction would become more difficult, painful...it would only take longer, and I'll miss out on the right opportunities. Is it time to course-correct? Is there a need to course-correct???
I know God is at work. I can feel His heavy hand on my shoulders. I know He is in control of my life. I know He's there. I know He'll always be there. I know that if He takes something so special and important away from me, He will replace it with something better. He has done this to me many times. I just have to be patient. I need to learn to trust and wait, with joy in my heart...even if things don't seem to unfold the way I want them to and I feel like I have failed myself, my family... Above all things, I do not want to fail God by turning my back on Him. Failing that would mean failing everything else.
Where am I, God? Where am I in Your plan? I'm lost without You. I'm staying put until You lead me elsewhere. Until then, I'll obey your commandments, heed Your Word, and continue to serve You by serving others. Help me to tap into Your strength, not mine, so I don't get burnt out...until then, Lord...until then. Give me love, joy, peace, patience, and wisdom...until You call me home. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
As Job said in Job 1:21, "The LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD."
What I've lost doesn't come close to what Job lost. What I've left behind doesn't come close to what Jesus had left behind to come to Earth in the form of a Man to die for our sins. Yet, my heart is heavy. It's been heavy for 1.5 years now, and I know that only God can lift this heavy burden...the big "why". Have I completely shared this with anyone? No. Do I want to? Maybe not. Should I? I don't know. I can't even express it. I can't rationalize. Most times, I don't even want to deal with it. It weighs me down. Others may think it's not a big deal. To me, it is. If it's important to me, it's important to God.
I keep looking back to when I was 24-25 years old. It was the time when God had freed me from an abusive relationship up until He moved me out of Hawai'i. Those were awesome times. They may have been extremely busy times, but life finally felt "normal" then. I felt free. I felt more capable and available to be there for my family when they needed me. I felt in control. I felt secure. I was extremely comfortable. Then, my foundations shook. Should I have allowed them to be shaken? Should I have turned my back on those who needed me? Should I have just stayed put? Did I make the wrong decision to move to Florida? Did God not speak to me and assure me that I was doing the right thing? Was that only a figment of my imagination? Was I just hearing things? Was I truly trusting God? Am I following God's plan or my plan? Am I where I am supposed to be? Am I doing what He wants me to do? Have I been making the right decisions? Am I basing my actions on things that would justify the decisions that I made, whether they were right or wrong? Is it time to hit the breaks, with the humbling realization that I've made the wrong choices? If I continue to tread down the wrong path, course correction would become more difficult, painful...it would only take longer, and I'll miss out on the right opportunities. Is it time to course-correct? Is there a need to course-correct???
I know God is at work. I can feel His heavy hand on my shoulders. I know He is in control of my life. I know He's there. I know He'll always be there. I know that if He takes something so special and important away from me, He will replace it with something better. He has done this to me many times. I just have to be patient. I need to learn to trust and wait, with joy in my heart...even if things don't seem to unfold the way I want them to and I feel like I have failed myself, my family... Above all things, I do not want to fail God by turning my back on Him. Failing that would mean failing everything else.
Where am I, God? Where am I in Your plan? I'm lost without You. I'm staying put until You lead me elsewhere. Until then, I'll obey your commandments, heed Your Word, and continue to serve You by serving others. Help me to tap into Your strength, not mine, so I don't get burnt out...until then, Lord...until then. Give me love, joy, peace, patience, and wisdom...until You call me home. In Jesus' Name, Amen.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Facing the Giants
I highly recommend watching this: Facing the Giants
Uncovering Leadership Potential
Uncovering Leadership Potential
Memories at Sweet 16
I remember doing something like this for our Youth Ministry 11 years ago (remember, Quincie?). It was an awesome experience...something I'd do all over again...though I'm no longer a teenager, and I'm almost 30!!! Good thing it's never too early or too late to serve God!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Calendar or To-Do List?
Want my attention? Need things to get done? The key is to get on my calendar, not on my To-Do list. I even need to make an appointment for and with myself!
Thankfully, God isn't anything like me! Thank God, we don't need to make an appointment to have a "meeting" with Him. He always has an open door policy and we can come to Him anytime, anywhere through prayer. He'll take care of us, even if we're not on His calendar! Isn't it awesome that God is above time? That's how great He is! Better yet, it's just wonderful to have a personal relationship with God. It's the best relationship you'll ever have! Want to start that relationship today? Click here now!
Thankfully, God isn't anything like me! Thank God, we don't need to make an appointment to have a "meeting" with Him. He always has an open door policy and we can come to Him anytime, anywhere through prayer. He'll take care of us, even if we're not on His calendar! Isn't it awesome that God is above time? That's how great He is! Better yet, it's just wonderful to have a personal relationship with God. It's the best relationship you'll ever have! Want to start that relationship today? Click here now!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Orlando World Outreach Center
I don't normally "church-hop" unless I'm out of town, and I don't like missing church, even when I'm green, sick, and dying...
This morning, I accompanied my roommate, Alissa, who was invited to attend the worship service at the Orlando World Outreach Center. Two main points struck me:
Those who are in God's family...
1) Trust the same Father
2) Trust the same Savior
3) Trust the same Spirit
4) Trust the same Word
Note: Sameness is not the bond that keeps us unified...it's knowing and trusting the same Savior!
If you don't have a church family, I encourage you to find one where you can fellowship, learn, grow, and serve together. Get plugged in!!!
This morning, I accompanied my roommate, Alissa, who was invited to attend the worship service at the Orlando World Outreach Center. Two main points struck me:
- God Himself is a relational God.
- Relationships are greater than accomplishments.
Those who are in God's family...
1) Trust the same Father
2) Trust the same Savior
3) Trust the same Spirit
4) Trust the same Word
Note: Sameness is not the bond that keeps us unified...it's knowing and trusting the same Savior!
If you don't have a church family, I encourage you to find one where you can fellowship, learn, grow, and serve together. Get plugged in!!!
Monday, September 15, 2008
On the Road to Self-Discovery
So, it's already September, and I'm still working on getting my 2007 taxes filed. As I re-opened my files, I actually surprised myself! I had already gotten my taxes done in December 2007, and was simply awaiting other documents to arrive in the mail by January or February. Because I had done them so long ago, I couldn't even remember the progress I've made!
Then, I paused for a second, and thought to myself, "Wow! I was so organized back then. What changed in 2008? What happened?"
2008 has undoubtedly been extremely eventful in all different facets of my life. I'll need a whole lot more time and whole lot more blog posts to narrate them. However, I can't help but notice my lack of focus, recently. I normally can zone in on tasks with ease and speed, regardless if they are enjoyable or not. At least, when my left brain is working...
Aha! That's it--"when my left brain is working!!!" Lately, I've re-embraced my love and passion for music. Seconds ago, I just realized that any type of music distracts me from being "left-brained". Music connects with my right brain, and it is my right brain that puts me back in touch with my passion for music and the arts. I typically engage in such artistic activities of self-expression at a more leisurely pace. With that said, music causes me to approach other time-sensitive projects at a significantly slower rate. Not good.
According to Ecclesiastes 3:1, "There's a time for everything..." Right now, it is time to turn the music off. About an hour ago, I asked God to help me put my finger on whatever has been causing me to lose focus. He sure did provide a quick answer to my prayer!!! A problem identified is a problem half-solved!
Okay, now it's time to finalize my taxes...
Then, I paused for a second, and thought to myself, "Wow! I was so organized back then. What changed in 2008? What happened?"
2008 has undoubtedly been extremely eventful in all different facets of my life. I'll need a whole lot more time and whole lot more blog posts to narrate them. However, I can't help but notice my lack of focus, recently. I normally can zone in on tasks with ease and speed, regardless if they are enjoyable or not. At least, when my left brain is working...
Aha! That's it--"when my left brain is working!!!" Lately, I've re-embraced my love and passion for music. Seconds ago, I just realized that any type of music distracts me from being "left-brained". Music connects with my right brain, and it is my right brain that puts me back in touch with my passion for music and the arts. I typically engage in such artistic activities of self-expression at a more leisurely pace. With that said, music causes me to approach other time-sensitive projects at a significantly slower rate. Not good.
According to Ecclesiastes 3:1, "There's a time for everything..." Right now, it is time to turn the music off. About an hour ago, I asked God to help me put my finger on whatever has been causing me to lose focus. He sure did provide a quick answer to my prayer!!! A problem identified is a problem half-solved!
Okay, now it's time to finalize my taxes...
Sunday, September 14, 2008
27.5: Confessions of An Unemotional Person
I'm now officially 27.5 years old. In the last 48 hours, God has used my friends, Alissa and Jamina, to indirectly remind me that I must reaffirm others about the way I feel about them. While I never really had any trouble with praising people about their strengths, I never thought that I was actually missing something more important. That is, people want to know what and how you feel about them! I've just never felt the need to express "the obvious" to those who are important to me, until I realized that what's obvious to me may not be obvious to others. At the same time, it has always been much easier (and safer) for me to stay impersonal (sharing what I think, i.e. praising others for their strengths) than "get personal" (sharing how I feel).I'm still learning. I've finally made some baby steps in expressing such things via written messages without expecting any responses. To my surprise, my efforts were warmly welcomed and appreciated by my family, close friends, and coworkers! I never thought that something so "simple and obvious" would be so greatly accepted and immediately celebrated!
Now, I just have to learn how to express it verbally without feeling awkward. I acknowledge that this is an area that I must completely and immediately surrender to the Lord so that I can more effectively share His love with others. I need to learn how to love with God's love. If I were to love others using my own strength, I will fail without a doubt...and I will do so horribly. Why? I'm afraid of the many disadvantages that come with the emotion. Love has always been one of my greatest fears. Among many other risks, love exposes you to rejection which often leads to pain, anger, bitterness, sadness, depression, etc., or creates a way for others to take advantage of you, which then leads to resentment, etc.
As I asked God to help me "search my heart", I came to a realization that I've been sharing love sparingly. While this may not be apparent to others, I know in my heart that I've never ever fully opened up myself to anyone, and sadly, this includes my family. I've always treated love with a lot of caution, only to be shared to a certain extent (calculated risk) so that the pain wouldn't be as great, thus allowing me to move on much quicker. As a result, I've never really allowed myself to get too close to anyone, so saying good-bye was never really a problem. It is very humbling to discover that after 27.5 years, I have not fully invested myself in any relationship. Though very little, I can honestly say that the amount of love I've shared and continue to share with others is pure and genuine. However, I know that God can use me more if I were just to let go and let God work through me to show HIS LOVE, not mine, at a much larger scale.
I grew up in a very loving home. I had no doubt that my family loved me dearly so I was never insecure and thus didn't search for it elsewhere. I did not need an extra outlet, i.e. a boyfriend, from which to receive love. But, as I look back, something was missing. I never felt safe expressing my thoughts and emotions (except with my dad, but he passed away when I was only 12). As an INTP representing only 1% of the population (and of that 1%, only 1% are female), I was clearly an odd-ball, starting from my childhood years. Whenever I'd express my feelings, I'd either get shot down quickly, misunderstood, misjudged, criticized, and viewed as "different". I'd cry and lock myself up in my room due to the injustice done, and wouldn't come out until the next day when it was time to go to school. No one even bothered to ask how I was feeling (the only person who made a few inconsistent attempts here and there was my brother, Jacob...which explains why I never hated him despite my perception that he was my mom's favorite). This would happen multiple times until I slowly learned how to pre-occupy myself with other things that worked (at an early age, I've always been fascinated with the discovery of how to make things work), and I got really good at it. As time passed by, I spent less and less time crying and sulking, and invested more and more time in other "productive" activities (alone), because such activities gave me a sense of accomplishment. Then, one day, I made the decision to stop investing any more time, energy, and emotion in people, particularly my mom, as this would result in "no more tears". I felt that the tears just hindered me from accomplishing those other things that worked for me. I had no time for tears. My mom started to see the difference, and in retrospect, I can now see how she tried to express her feelings of sadness and disappointment with me as a result of my rejection. At that point, it was too late. I had completely shut down, emotionally. Her words, even her tears, meant nothing to me. They just got in my way. I was too busy. And, when my dad passed away, my sense of independence only got even stronger. Yes, I was still expressive, cheerful, and energetic, but I just wasn't in tune with my own feelings or that of others (little did they know). My mom truly felt the scorn, with or without any words spoken by me, intentionally or unintentionally.
In the last 7 years, God has used many events in my life that would form a bond between us, and by God's grace, it's only getting stronger. While I've always been aware of this new and improved relationship with my mom, I just realized that I have never really told her how I feel about her now that God has helped us to get where we are today!
In 1997, Heather, my then roommate, found me crying in my room, and got me to open up (she was supposed to be out of town that day). Later, she would share an article from the book, "Chicken Soup for the Soul", that brought me to tears! Lots of tears!!! Since then, I started to see my mom in a whole new light; although, this would be a very slow process. Fast forward to 2008: once again, God gives me a roommate, Alissa, who is my complete opposite but one who complements my personality. I came home tonight expressing how much I appreciate my mom. She interjected, "Why don't you tell her?"
I immediately text my mom: "I love you, mom. You are the best thing God has ever given me." To which she replied: "Thanks, that's the best thing I've ever heard." The other day, mom was diagnosed with osteoporosis, and along with her many other ailments, she's now in need of knee replacement surgery. I'm tearing up a bit as I type. Looking back, I wish I could have told her of my affection more often, earlier on in my life. I always believed actions speak louder than words...my mistake was in not uttering any words at all. (/end of tears)
And then there's my brother, Jacob. We had a great childhood growing up together, and we've always been very close. But, I've never shared any of my deepest thoughts with him, until recently. In doing so, I started to also see him in a different light. Last night, I text him: "I love talking with you about "stuff" now. Wish I would've done it earlier than to have been too proud and secretive. Love you ugly, you are a pal." His reply was: "Pleasure to listen, I love you. Goodnight."
I never thought this blog would be this long. I was about to end it at the second paragraph, but God moved me to write more when I didn't really feel like opening up. I trust God would use this to move readers who have experienced or are experiencing the same challenges. I challenge you to go beyond the impersonal, politically correct, safe zone, and add a "personal touch of God's love" to whomever God brings your way...starting with those who are very important to you. You will only miss out on God's blessings if you'd continue to hold back. I know I did, and I'm glad that, with the help of God's Spirit, I've uncovered some hidden treasures once again!
...And I always mistakenly thought, "Nothing major is wrong with me!" Look deep down inside, you'll be surprised at what you'll find! Use King David's prayer as a guide:
"Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts:"
Psalm 139:23
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Reflections of Love
Recently, a new friend suggested that I read the book, "Practicing in the Presence of People." I'm pretty passive, spontaneous, and easygoing when things aren't work-related, so I just readily agreed without asking any questions.
As I read the prologue, something caught my attention:
"In the stillness, love grows deeper. Following the death of my mother, my father often said, "I only wish I could have loved her while she was still here the way I do now." This is the goal of contemplation: to love right now as we will in heaven."
I'm now tempted to wonder why this book had been recommended. But then again, this is not work-related. So, I'll just go with the flow. Let go, and let God. Reading this book will be an interesting journey. I look forward to posting more meaningful thoughts on this blog as I progress. It may just inspire me to write/compose another song!
As I read the prologue, something caught my attention:
"In the stillness, love grows deeper. Following the death of my mother, my father often said, "I only wish I could have loved her while she was still here the way I do now." This is the goal of contemplation: to love right now as we will in heaven."
I'm now tempted to wonder why this book had been recommended. But then again, this is not work-related. So, I'll just go with the flow. Let go, and let God. Reading this book will be an interesting journey. I look forward to posting more meaningful thoughts on this blog as I progress. It may just inspire me to write/compose another song!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
In Jesus' Arms
In Jesus' Arms
It's cold, it's dark
I'm all alone
I can't describe
My heart is torn
Searching for the answers to
My questions and my pain
Longing for a Savior to
Just free me from my chain
But God knows all my fears
He'll wipe away my tears
When no one else can see me hurting
And deep inside I feel like dying
To find my way back home
In Jesus' arms
I'm hurt, I'm scared
I'm beaten down
I can't express
My feelings now
Searching for a Friend to see
The fragile side of me
Longing for a Savior to
Just pour His love on me
My God knows all my fears
He'll wipe away my tears
When all the world around me's laughing
He alone can see me crying
I'll find my way back home
In Jesus' arms
In Jesus' arms...
In Jesus' arms I'm safe forever
He alone will leave me never
My Jesus, Savior, Friend
My Everything
My God knows all my fears
Oh, He'll wipe away my tears
When all the world around me's laughing
He alone can see me crying
I'll find my way back home
Oh, I'll find my way back home
I'll find my way back home
In Jesus' arms
In Jesus' arms
In Jesus arms
It's cold, it's dark
I'm all alone
I can't describe
My heart is torn
Searching for the answers to
My questions and my pain
Longing for a Savior to
Just free me from my chain
But God knows all my fears
He'll wipe away my tears
When no one else can see me hurting
And deep inside I feel like dying
To find my way back home
In Jesus' arms
I'm hurt, I'm scared
I'm beaten down
I can't express
My feelings now
Searching for a Friend to see
The fragile side of me
Longing for a Savior to
Just pour His love on me
My God knows all my fears
He'll wipe away my tears
When all the world around me's laughing
He alone can see me crying
I'll find my way back home
In Jesus' arms
In Jesus' arms...
In Jesus' arms I'm safe forever
He alone will leave me never
My Jesus, Savior, Friend
My Everything
My God knows all my fears
Oh, He'll wipe away my tears
When all the world around me's laughing
He alone can see me crying
I'll find my way back home
Oh, I'll find my way back home
I'll find my way back home
In Jesus' arms
In Jesus' arms
In Jesus arms
Reset: I'm an Introvert!
A great revelation came about just a few hours ago. I just discovered that my true personality is quite different from what I had always thought it to be! My perception happened to be in line with how others saw me, how they expected me to behave, and what I felt I had to be so that I could take action on unmet "societal" needs. I now am aware that being an ENTJ was a learned behavior on my part, as this is what has made me effective in my dealings with people and systems. No wonder I would always express the desire to break free and get away whenever there's an overabundance of stimuli! In addition, the move to Florida has been a big kick out of my comfort zone geographically, psychologically, and "behaviorally"...and to a certain degree, emotionally.
As I engaged in some introspection then and now, it has become apparent that I'm actually an INTP at its core. As I read through my past blogs, it is a clear indication that I'm a true introvert! I know this is hard to believe, but this is the truth from childhood and on up. So I can either choose to be like Bill Gates (ENTJ) or Albert Einstein (INTP). I'd say, "none of the above", for I aim and strive to be more like Christ each day, according to the Scriptures! I am "fearfully and wonderfully made" as God said in the book of Psalms, and I am fashioned by the Master's loving hands. Therefore, I am confident that only He knows me inside out, and that "He's Still Working On Me"!
Yes, it can definitely get quite frustrating at times when not too many people are able to understand me, given that my personality type is only 1% of the population (according to Keirsey's book, Please Understand Me II), and the majority of that 1% population is male. That makes it even worse! My biggest desire has always been to understand others (a select few), and this is hard when such people don't even understand me! More so, after all these years, I never really truly understood myself!
I thank God for bringing this to my attention. I feel led to believe that He is revealing a great truth to me in such a way that I needed to rediscover myself to uncover additional strengths that He wants me to use for His glory!
I believe I've just hit yet another major milestone. I wonder what the next major milestone will be. Only God knows. Only time will tell.
Time to reset, time to renew, time to let go of what's been holding me back in the last 6 months...time to let God.
As I engaged in some introspection then and now, it has become apparent that I'm actually an INTP at its core. As I read through my past blogs, it is a clear indication that I'm a true introvert! I know this is hard to believe, but this is the truth from childhood and on up. So I can either choose to be like Bill Gates (ENTJ) or Albert Einstein (INTP). I'd say, "none of the above", for I aim and strive to be more like Christ each day, according to the Scriptures! I am "fearfully and wonderfully made" as God said in the book of Psalms, and I am fashioned by the Master's loving hands. Therefore, I am confident that only He knows me inside out, and that "He's Still Working On Me"!
Yes, it can definitely get quite frustrating at times when not too many people are able to understand me, given that my personality type is only 1% of the population (according to Keirsey's book, Please Understand Me II), and the majority of that 1% population is male. That makes it even worse! My biggest desire has always been to understand others (a select few), and this is hard when such people don't even understand me! More so, after all these years, I never really truly understood myself!
I thank God for bringing this to my attention. I feel led to believe that He is revealing a great truth to me in such a way that I needed to rediscover myself to uncover additional strengths that He wants me to use for His glory!
I believe I've just hit yet another major milestone. I wonder what the next major milestone will be. Only God knows. Only time will tell.
Time to reset, time to renew, time to let go of what's been holding me back in the last 6 months...time to let God.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Lawnmower Lessons
After a few missed appointments and a series of heavy rain, my lawn has just gotten out of control. In church last night, the guest speaker shared how he unexpectedly learned some valuable life lessons while mowing his own lawn (apparently, his yard guy failed to do his job, too). This inspired me to get my own lawnmower today.
I never realized how (finally) mowing my own lawn would bring a sense of community within our neighborhood. Our neighbors and friends came out to cheer me on as I gave my lawn a mohawk (at least, that's what they said). Unfortunately, I did not get to finish it because it had already gotten dark. It's a work in progress, a masterpiece in the making :)
I have blogged about my lawn before--that it had taught me a lesson--about grass being greener on the other side because it's greener where it is actually watered. This time, it served me another purpose: to reach out to my neighbors and vice versa.
Mowing your own lawn isn't so bad after all. Just make sure you get a self-propelled lawnmower! I can't believe I actually had fun while doing it!
"And whatsoever ye do, do [it] heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;" Colossians 3:23
I never realized how (finally) mowing my own lawn would bring a sense of community within our neighborhood. Our neighbors and friends came out to cheer me on as I gave my lawn a mohawk (at least, that's what they said). Unfortunately, I did not get to finish it because it had already gotten dark. It's a work in progress, a masterpiece in the making :)
I have blogged about my lawn before--that it had taught me a lesson--about grass being greener on the other side because it's greener where it is actually watered. This time, it served me another purpose: to reach out to my neighbors and vice versa.
Mowing your own lawn isn't so bad after all. Just make sure you get a self-propelled lawnmower! I can't believe I actually had fun while doing it!
"And whatsoever ye do, do [it] heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men;" Colossians 3:23
Great Question
"Have you ever wanted something so badly - hunted, searched, prayed - then when you found it, you realized that maybe it wasn't exactly what you wanted, but it was definitely what you needed?"
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Unmet Expectations
I could be wrong, but I feel I have very simple/minimal/basic expectations of people whom I've chosen to care about (truthfully, I don't even have any expectations whatsoever of those who aren't close to me). The downside to this is that, when such seemingly simple expectations are unmet after a seemingly reasonable period of time, I get frustrated. Being innately expressive and/or direct doesn't help during such times of frustration, especially when the object of one's frustration happens to be a sensitive individual. My natural tendency would either be to a) tell it as it is, without any regard for the other person's feelings, or b) dismiss the situation, withdraw, and discontinue investing any more time and/or emotion into the matter or worse yet, the person.
My logic would reason that I've already invested enough valuable resources and during the (due) process, opened myself up beyond my perceived level of comfort to allow the other person to open up so that I can see more clearly through his/her lens. It's difficult for me to process information without the right amount of timely feedback (for me, negative feedback is good feedback because it's still feedback, whereas no feedback can be easily misinterpreted as silent rejection) because this leads to making assumptions, and I hate making assumptions because this not only increases chances of error, it is also very time-consuming. Who likes making mistakes and wasting lots of valuable time? All I want is to be able to understand. Agreement is desired but optional. Differences in opinions, values, and beliefs are to be respected, and in some cases, even celebrated.
Just by reading the first two paragraphs, the average reader may conclude that I'm a cold, insensitive, uncaring, unreasonable, stubborn, and impatient perfectionist! All of this is true (and more) when I'm operating "in the flesh". Some would argue that I don't express my intense emotions enough when all I'm trying to do is apply the "fruits of the Spirit" such as meekness and temperance (self-control)! The Bible teaches to "speak the truth with love", and that's what I am striving for in times of frustration. This is the best alternative (option c) compared to options a and b, above.
Even as a child, I would "preach": "Don't expect, just accept." This is hard to apply in communication, especially when clear, concise communication (no hinting, please!!!) is very important to you. The process is broken when feedback (specifically, quality feedback) is not present. Therefore, quality communication calls for quality and timely feedback, hence the "expectation".
I'm not one to readily communicate openly to others (if at all). For me, open communication, i.e. deep, meaningful conversation, is a form of giving. Using that premise, I must therefore apply the principle of giving unconditionally. Does this mean I should then continue to openly communicate without expecting any feedback of some sort? If so, the same average reader can now also call me self-centered and inconsiderate. In such cases, one is inclined to question if one's presence was appreciated in the first place, which breeds an internal dialogue that may lead to broken relationships that have no real closure.
This is very humbling at best. I then ask God for a gift of "discernment" so that I know that the words I communicate are truly helping (vs. hurting or annoying) the recipient. The Bible teaches that "a word spoken in due season is good"; which means that even a good word spoken at the wrong time could be useless or even harmful.
A good lesson can be learned here:
If quality and timely feedback is to be expected, then the sender of the message must first carefully ensure that the message being transmitted is also timely and of high quality.
Garbage in, garbage out. What kind of message are you sending? Evaluate the type of feedback you have been receiving. Chances are, it only reflects the type of message you sent out in the first place. What you sow, you reap. Anything positive beyond that is exceptional and is therefore called "grace". In this context, grace is defined as "getting what you don't deserve." In essence, don't expect any more than what you put in.
"Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer." Psalm 19:14
So, are you ready for a second chance??? Thank God He's a God of "Second Chance", as one beautiful song puts it.
My logic would reason that I've already invested enough valuable resources and during the (due) process, opened myself up beyond my perceived level of comfort to allow the other person to open up so that I can see more clearly through his/her lens. It's difficult for me to process information without the right amount of timely feedback (for me, negative feedback is good feedback because it's still feedback, whereas no feedback can be easily misinterpreted as silent rejection) because this leads to making assumptions, and I hate making assumptions because this not only increases chances of error, it is also very time-consuming. Who likes making mistakes and wasting lots of valuable time? All I want is to be able to understand. Agreement is desired but optional. Differences in opinions, values, and beliefs are to be respected, and in some cases, even celebrated.
Just by reading the first two paragraphs, the average reader may conclude that I'm a cold, insensitive, uncaring, unreasonable, stubborn, and impatient perfectionist! All of this is true (and more) when I'm operating "in the flesh". Some would argue that I don't express my intense emotions enough when all I'm trying to do is apply the "fruits of the Spirit" such as meekness and temperance (self-control)! The Bible teaches to "speak the truth with love", and that's what I am striving for in times of frustration. This is the best alternative (option c) compared to options a and b, above.
Even as a child, I would "preach": "Don't expect, just accept." This is hard to apply in communication, especially when clear, concise communication (no hinting, please!!!) is very important to you. The process is broken when feedback (specifically, quality feedback) is not present. Therefore, quality communication calls for quality and timely feedback, hence the "expectation".
I'm not one to readily communicate openly to others (if at all). For me, open communication, i.e. deep, meaningful conversation, is a form of giving. Using that premise, I must therefore apply the principle of giving unconditionally. Does this mean I should then continue to openly communicate without expecting any feedback of some sort? If so, the same average reader can now also call me self-centered and inconsiderate. In such cases, one is inclined to question if one's presence was appreciated in the first place, which breeds an internal dialogue that may lead to broken relationships that have no real closure.
This is very humbling at best. I then ask God for a gift of "discernment" so that I know that the words I communicate are truly helping (vs. hurting or annoying) the recipient. The Bible teaches that "a word spoken in due season is good"; which means that even a good word spoken at the wrong time could be useless or even harmful.
A good lesson can be learned here:
If quality and timely feedback is to be expected, then the sender of the message must first carefully ensure that the message being transmitted is also timely and of high quality.
Garbage in, garbage out. What kind of message are you sending? Evaluate the type of feedback you have been receiving. Chances are, it only reflects the type of message you sent out in the first place. What you sow, you reap. Anything positive beyond that is exceptional and is therefore called "grace". In this context, grace is defined as "getting what you don't deserve." In essence, don't expect any more than what you put in.
"Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer." Psalm 19:14
So, are you ready for a second chance??? Thank God He's a God of "Second Chance", as one beautiful song puts it.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Sad
Time and again, I have heard people say that I'm extremely hard to read, and that I have a very complex personality.
Only God knows how sad I have been feeling lately. By God's grace, I was able to block out this emotion and enjoy the beautiful day He has blessed me with this Labor Day. At the end of the day, however, the truth still kicks in, and the emotion is still there.
"And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove! For then would I fly away, and be at rest." Psalm 55:6
"Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?" Psalm 56:8
I have always had a tough time expressing any type of emotion that would reveal my deepest feelings, mainly due to personality, upbringing, and preference. It's nice to see how others in the Bible have vocalized their intense feelings in such a way that would resonate with me.
My sadness prompts me to run to my Heavenly Father because He is the only One Who truly understands my thoughts and emotions. Plus, He has given us a great promise:
"Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and He shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved." Psalm 55:22
How do you respond to your sadness? Don't allow any negative emotions such as anger, bitterness, depression, etc., to kick in. Instead, "cry out" to God, like King David in the Bible did, and wait on the Lord as you claim His many promises. He alone can empower you to experience joy amid your sadness!
Only God knows how sad I have been feeling lately. By God's grace, I was able to block out this emotion and enjoy the beautiful day He has blessed me with this Labor Day. At the end of the day, however, the truth still kicks in, and the emotion is still there.
"And I said, Oh that I had wings like a dove! For then would I fly away, and be at rest." Psalm 55:6
"Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?" Psalm 56:8
I have always had a tough time expressing any type of emotion that would reveal my deepest feelings, mainly due to personality, upbringing, and preference. It's nice to see how others in the Bible have vocalized their intense feelings in such a way that would resonate with me.
My sadness prompts me to run to my Heavenly Father because He is the only One Who truly understands my thoughts and emotions. Plus, He has given us a great promise:
"Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and He shall sustain thee: He shall never suffer the righteous to be moved." Psalm 55:22
How do you respond to your sadness? Don't allow any negative emotions such as anger, bitterness, depression, etc., to kick in. Instead, "cry out" to God, like King David in the Bible did, and wait on the Lord as you claim His many promises. He alone can empower you to experience joy amid your sadness!
Saturday, August 30, 2008
How Do You Treat Others?
Who likes reading forwarded emails? Count me out. Why? I get a lot of them, they're too lengthy, and I seem to keep getting the same ones over and over again. Most times, I delete without reading, depending on what's on the subject line. However, the forwarded message below captured my attention, because there is a lot of truth in it. So, not only did I read it, I'm also posting it to serve as a good reminder for all of us :)
Today's the beginning of a 3-day weekend. Are we going to spend our time figuring out how we can enjoy ourselves or are we going to get up and serve others with joy in our hearts? This weekend (and beyond), think of ways you can make a difference in someone's life. If you do it for God, your impact will be eternal.
Enjoy reading...
(5) lessons to make you think about the way we treat people.
1 - First Important Lesson - Cleaning Lady.
During my second month of college, our professor
gave us a pop quiz I was a conscientious student
and had breezed through the questions until I read
the last one:
'What is the first name of the woman who cleans the school?'
Surely this was some kind of joke. I had seen the
cleaning woman several times. She was tall,
dark-haired and in her 50s, but how would I know her name?
I handed in my paper, leaving the last question
blank. Just before class ended, one student asked if
the last question would count toward our quiz grade.
'Absolutely,' said the professor. 'In your careers,
you will meet many people. All are significant. They
deserve your attention and care, even if all you do
is smile and say 'hello.'
I've never forgotten that lesson. I also learned her
name was Dorothy.
2. - Second Important Lesson - Pickup in the Rain
One night, at 11:3 0 p.m., an older African American
woman was standing on the side of an Alabama highway
trying to endure a lashing rainstorm. Her car had
broken down and she desperately needed a ride.
Soaking wet, she decided to flag down the next car.
A young white man stopped to help her, generally
unheard of in those conflict-filled 60s.. The man
took her to safety, helped her get assistance and
put her into a taxicab.
She seemed to be in a big hurry, but wrote down his
address and thanked him. Seven days went by and a
knock came on the man's door. To his surprise, a
giant console color TV was delivered to his home. A
special note was attached..
It read:
'Thank you so much for assisting me on the highway
the other night. The rain drenched not only my
clothes, but also my spirits. Then you came along.
Because of you, I was able to make it to my dying
husband's bedside just before he passed away... God
bless you for helping me and unselfishly serving
others.'
Sincerely, Mrs. Nat King Cole.
3 - Third Important Lesson - Always remember those who serve.
In the days when an ice cream sundae cost much less,
a 10-year-old boy entered a hotel coffee shop and
sat at a table. A waitress put a glass of water in front of him.
'How much is an ice cream sundae?' he asked.
'Fifty cents,' replied the waitress.
The little boy pulled is hand out of his pocket and
studied the coins in it.
'Well, how much is a plain dish of ice cream?' he inquired.
By now more people were waiting for a table and the
waitress was growing impatient.
'Thirty-five cents,' she brusquely replied.
The little boy again counted his coins.
'I'll have the plain ice cream,' he said.
The waitress brought the ice cream, put the bill on
the table and walked away. The boy finished the ice
cream, paid the cashier and left. When the waitress
came back, she began to cry as she wiped down the
table. There, placed neatly beside the empty dish,
were two nickels and five pennies..
You see, he couldn't have the sundae, because he had
to have enough left to leave her a tip.
4 - Fourth Important Lesson. - The obstacle in Our Path.
In ancient times, a King had a boulder placed on a
roadway. Then he hid himself and watched to see if
anyone would remove the huge rock. Some of the
king's wealthiest merchants and courtiers came by
and simply walked around it. Many loudly blamed the
King for not keeping the roads clear, but none did
anything about getting the stone out of the way.
Then a peasant came along carrying a load of
vegetables. Upon approaching the boulder, the
peasant laid down his burden and tried to move the
stone to the side of the road. After much pushing
and straining, he finally succeeded. After the
peasant picked up his load of vegetables, he noticed
a purse lying in the road where the boulder had
been. The purse contained many gold coins and a note
from the King indicating that the gold was for the
person who removed the boulder from the roadway. The
peasant learned what many of us never understand!
Every obstacle presents an opportunity to improve our condition.
5 - Fifth Important Lesson - Giving When it Counts...
Many years ago, when I worked as a volunteer at a
hospital, I got to know a little girl named Liz who
was suffering from a rare & serious disease. Her only
chance of recovery appeared to be a blood
transfusion from her 5-year old brother, who had
miraculously survived the same disease and had
developed the antibodies needed to combat the
illness.. The doctor explained the situation to her
little brother, and asked the little boy if he would
be willing to give his blood to his sister.
I saw him hesitate for only a moment before taking a
deep breath and saying, 'Yes I'll do it if it will
save her' As the transfusion progressed, he lay in
bed next to his sister and smiled, as we all did,
seeing the colour returning to her cheek. Then his
face grew pale and his smile faded.
He looked up at the doctor and asked with a
trembling voice, 'Will I start to die right away'.
Being young, the little boy had misunderstood the
doctor; he thought he was going to have to give his
sister all of his blood in order to save her but he had chosen to save her anyway.
'Work like you don't need the money, love like you've never been hurt, and dance like you do when nobody's watching.'
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Today's Heartache
This past Saturday, I blogged about "A Single Mom's Dream Come True", without knowing King Solomon was going to be the same topic of discussion during today's Bible Study at Palm Springs Drive Baptist Church. I can't say enough about the message being so timely!
Today marks the very first time I received a phone call from Diego's school (he's in 1st Grade now) that I had to immediately stop what I was doing at work, and show up at the school office to enforce some serious disciplinary action on my child. Most parents dread such a day, while others are already used to it. Nonetheless, it is a very unpleasant yet important experience to go through with your child. For me, it truly was a teaching opportunity for both of us. Parenting is not easy. Adjustments need to be made, evaluated, and reinforced...and this applies to both parent(s) and child.
Despite it all, I'm thankful that the offense was only "excessive talking" and "disobedience" (in terms of not knowing when to stop talking) vs. beating up another child, etc. Regardless, I felt horrible deep down inside. I felt like bursting into tears from the time I had left the office, arrived at the school, had a heart-to-heart talk with Diego, and back. It's so easy to get emotional and convince yourself, "I don't know what else to do!" I seriously wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I couldn't even speak. No wonder King Solomon said what he said: "But I am only a little child and do not know how to carry out my duties."
I sure felt like that little child, lost and totally helpless, and wanted someone to hold my hand. I wanted a shoulder to cry on, to lean on, but couldn't find one (or refused to find one). Holding back my emotions throughout the day only intensified what I was truly feeling inside.
So tonight, during my quiet time, I come to my Heavenly Father to pour out my emotions. Parenting isn't easy, and it's only the beginning. I'm now only starting to experience the different (and evolving) stages of parenting myself, and it is such a huge responsibility. I certainly don't want to give in or give up. During such times, it's much easier for spectators to pass judgment on you instead of offering a helping hand or a listening ear.
But then again, the correct response isn't to complain because that won't get me anywhere. Just within 6 months of God miraculously delivering the Israelites out of Egypt, they complained that they were thirsty. They blamed their leader, Moses, instead of going directly to God to ask for help (or even thinking to offer Moses any help)...instead of trusting God and knowing that He will supply their every need. They quickly forgot how He had delivered them from Pharaoh's cruel hand, and now they're doubting that He will quench their thirst! In the end, God still gave them their request...however, I'm sure they missed out on a great blessing for doubting God, complaining, and not serving.
It's so easy to judge the Israelites after reading the story. It's so easy to call them selfish, vile, and ungrateful. But, if we look inwardly, we'll see how we can be just like that in our everyday lives. When faced with difficulty, i.e. parenting challenges, I can easily complain, turn to someone else (instead of God), blame that person for whatever reason, and doubt God. But, I don't want to miss God's blessing. I already know I can't do this on my own...which only means, I have no reason to go into the "Woe-is-me" mode. Instead, I should cast my burden at His feet (1 Peter 5:7). My problem is God's problem! We're on the same team! Therefore, I must be confident that if He's on my side, it has already been taken care of! I just need to trust Him to give me wisdom to know what to do, for His glory.
I'm pretty sure there will be more challenges up ahead that may even seem insurmountable...but, my God is greater than any problem...and I know He will hold my hand and see me through each one of them.
So, how was your day today? Was it challenging? How did you handle it? Or, how could you have done things differently? Did you enlist God's help in dealing with today's challenges?
Today marks the very first time I received a phone call from Diego's school (he's in 1st Grade now) that I had to immediately stop what I was doing at work, and show up at the school office to enforce some serious disciplinary action on my child. Most parents dread such a day, while others are already used to it. Nonetheless, it is a very unpleasant yet important experience to go through with your child. For me, it truly was a teaching opportunity for both of us. Parenting is not easy. Adjustments need to be made, evaluated, and reinforced...and this applies to both parent(s) and child.
Despite it all, I'm thankful that the offense was only "excessive talking" and "disobedience" (in terms of not knowing when to stop talking) vs. beating up another child, etc. Regardless, I felt horrible deep down inside. I felt like bursting into tears from the time I had left the office, arrived at the school, had a heart-to-heart talk with Diego, and back. It's so easy to get emotional and convince yourself, "I don't know what else to do!" I seriously wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I couldn't even speak. No wonder King Solomon said what he said: "But I am only a little child and do not know how to carry out my duties."
I sure felt like that little child, lost and totally helpless, and wanted someone to hold my hand. I wanted a shoulder to cry on, to lean on, but couldn't find one (or refused to find one). Holding back my emotions throughout the day only intensified what I was truly feeling inside.
So tonight, during my quiet time, I come to my Heavenly Father to pour out my emotions. Parenting isn't easy, and it's only the beginning. I'm now only starting to experience the different (and evolving) stages of parenting myself, and it is such a huge responsibility. I certainly don't want to give in or give up. During such times, it's much easier for spectators to pass judgment on you instead of offering a helping hand or a listening ear.
But then again, the correct response isn't to complain because that won't get me anywhere. Just within 6 months of God miraculously delivering the Israelites out of Egypt, they complained that they were thirsty. They blamed their leader, Moses, instead of going directly to God to ask for help (or even thinking to offer Moses any help)...instead of trusting God and knowing that He will supply their every need. They quickly forgot how He had delivered them from Pharaoh's cruel hand, and now they're doubting that He will quench their thirst! In the end, God still gave them their request...however, I'm sure they missed out on a great blessing for doubting God, complaining, and not serving.
It's so easy to judge the Israelites after reading the story. It's so easy to call them selfish, vile, and ungrateful. But, if we look inwardly, we'll see how we can be just like that in our everyday lives. When faced with difficulty, i.e. parenting challenges, I can easily complain, turn to someone else (instead of God), blame that person for whatever reason, and doubt God. But, I don't want to miss God's blessing. I already know I can't do this on my own...which only means, I have no reason to go into the "Woe-is-me" mode. Instead, I should cast my burden at His feet (1 Peter 5:7). My problem is God's problem! We're on the same team! Therefore, I must be confident that if He's on my side, it has already been taken care of! I just need to trust Him to give me wisdom to know what to do, for His glory.
I'm pretty sure there will be more challenges up ahead that may even seem insurmountable...but, my God is greater than any problem...and I know He will hold my hand and see me through each one of them.
So, how was your day today? Was it challenging? How did you handle it? Or, how could you have done things differently? Did you enlist God's help in dealing with today's challenges?
My Dwelling Place
Psalm 90:1 states,
"LORD, Thou hast been our dwelling place in all generations."
Ask Yourself...
If God is my Dwelling Place:
"LORD, Thou hast been our dwelling place in all generations."
Ask Yourself...
If God is my Dwelling Place:
- What does this mean to me?
- How does this change my outlook in life?
- How must I then act and live out my life?
- How must I treat my dwelling place?
Saturday, August 23, 2008
A Single Mom's Dream Come True
Written by Lori Little
Lori Little, A Woman By Design ministry's founder, is the former Director of John C. Maxwell's THRiVE!, Becoming A Woman Of Influence.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Gabriel
My 2-year-old,
Timothy Gabriel
One of God's greatest gifts
A living demonstration of His love and grace
A gift I never asked for
A gift I don't deserve
A gift I never thought that I'd want and love so much beyond measure
A gift I'll always treasure
"I have no greater joy than to hear that my children walk in truth."
3 John 4
Feel Like Complaining?
Psalm 77:3 states, "I remembered God, and was troubled: I complained, and my spirit was overwhelmed. Selah."
I can't deny: I feel overwhelmed!!! It's one of those days. I just had an open and honest conversation with my Father. I desperately need help! My first prayer was all about I, me, and myself. Shame on me!
After pouring my heart to Him, He gently brought many things to remembrance. I can't believe how blessed I am! I feel so humbled, inadequate, and unworthy. At the same time, I feel honored that God chose me to receive such blessings! What a great God! He loves me so much! He is all I need. He continues to bless me with many options, many outlets, and a myriad of unclaimed treasures. God has done so much for me, that my heart can sing: "Take my life and let it be, consecrated Lord to thee...."
This life is not mine, but His. May He use me and what I have for His purpose, for His glory. Nothing more, nothing less. That's all I ask. That's my heart's desire. What's yours???
I can't deny: I feel overwhelmed!!! It's one of those days. I just had an open and honest conversation with my Father. I desperately need help! My first prayer was all about I, me, and myself. Shame on me!
After pouring my heart to Him, He gently brought many things to remembrance. I can't believe how blessed I am! I feel so humbled, inadequate, and unworthy. At the same time, I feel honored that God chose me to receive such blessings! What a great God! He loves me so much! He is all I need. He continues to bless me with many options, many outlets, and a myriad of unclaimed treasures. God has done so much for me, that my heart can sing: "Take my life and let it be, consecrated Lord to thee...."
This life is not mine, but His. May He use me and what I have for His purpose, for His glory. Nothing more, nothing less. That's all I ask. That's my heart's desire. What's yours???
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Feel Like Giving Up?
Psalm 66 provides a great illustration on how God answers prayer, and how we are to praise and thank Him especially during those times. It also mentions how we are "tried like silver" while waiting for His answer and/or deliverance, and that there is hope in the end (He brought us "out into a wealthier place").
In this chapter, the writer was remembering God's rescue of the Israelites by parting the Red Sea during the Exodus. God saved the Israelites then, and He continues to save His people today.
Psalm 66:18-20 states:
"If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me: but verily God hath heard me; He hath attended to the voice of my prayer. Blessed be God, which hath not turned away my prayer, nor His mercy from me."
Do you have any "iniquity" in your heart that is hindering God's answer to your prayer? Are you harboring any bitterness, hatred, jealousy, or anger in your heart? Have a conversation with God today to clear that out. And, when you feel like giving up, don't! A wise man once said, "You wouldn't want to find yourself giving up on the day before God blessed." God gives hope. He is our Hope.
As Job said when he was going through a lot of trials, "But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold." Job 23:10
In this chapter, the writer was remembering God's rescue of the Israelites by parting the Red Sea during the Exodus. God saved the Israelites then, and He continues to save His people today.
Psalm 66:18-20 states:
"If I regard iniquity in my heart, the Lord will not hear me: but verily God hath heard me; He hath attended to the voice of my prayer. Blessed be God, which hath not turned away my prayer, nor His mercy from me."
Do you have any "iniquity" in your heart that is hindering God's answer to your prayer? Are you harboring any bitterness, hatred, jealousy, or anger in your heart? Have a conversation with God today to clear that out. And, when you feel like giving up, don't! A wise man once said, "You wouldn't want to find yourself giving up on the day before God blessed." God gives hope. He is our Hope.
As Job said when he was going through a lot of trials, "But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold." Job 23:10
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Today's Scripture Passage
Psalm 105:1-5
O give thanks unto the LORD; call upon his name: make known his deeds among the people.
Sing unto him, sing psalms unto him: talk ye of all his wondrous works.
Glory ye in his holy name: let the heart of them rejoice that seek the LORD.
Seek the LORD, and his strength: seek his face evermore.
Remember his marvelous works that he hath done; his wonders, and the judgments of his mouth;
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